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Thursday, 03 July 2008

people need to learn to appreciate what they've got instead of worrying about what they've not

Monday, 09 June 2008

your secrets are safe with me - just think of me as the pages in your diary...
Your secrets are safe with me - just think of me as the pages in your diary...

Saturday, 10 December 2005

"Why do you look so sad and forsaken?
Don't you know - when one door is closed, many more is open..."
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. I guess that's a good way to look at things. Finals are upon us, my friends... It's a little stressful in Hoo-ville and especially so with the approaching holiday season. I have three finals left, and one paper that I should be writing now, but alas..
So last night amidst the immense lack of studying that I was doing, I had a flash of insight prompted by a long and much needed pep talk from my suga daddy... basically I've been letting a lot of little stuff get to my head and it's been weighin me down. I look back at the summer before college, and my life seemed so much more carefree, and so I've made it my goal for now to revert back to that mentality. Life is too short to do otherwise. What does it profit a man to constantly fret over the things he does not have, when he could be enjoying the things he does. Sometimes you want something so badly that it blinds you from seeing what's really there. We haven't a clue as to the workings of this thing we called life. In the broadest respect, there exists a divine order which we can never hope to comprehend. Bad things happen to good people and things which are beyond our control shape our destinies, but in the end - there is a reason to it all...
and here's one example of an unanticipated miracle:

"you will seek the Lord your God and you will find Him if you search after
Him with all your heart and soul..." -Deut. 4:29

When the race gets hard to run, It means you just can't take the pace.

When it's time to have your fun, you find the tears run on down ya face.
Then ya stop and think a little: are you the victim of the system?
Anyday now, they gon let ya down. an' who'll be there to see ya thru?
Many a time I sit an' wonder why this race is so very hard ta run,
Then I say to my soul: take courage- there's a battle to be won.
Like a ship that's tossed and driven, battered by the angry sea
Say the tide of time was ragin' - don't let the fury fall on me...

Wednesday, 02 November 2005

Hello friends. just thought I'd grace xanga with my presence as I sit here contemplating my life. It's almost the end of the semester- three weeks til Thanksgiving break, five weeks til finals and I have hell to go through until I get to winter break... I'm so sick of all this shit and I think it's beginning to take its toll on my health. I went trick or treating on Monday only to be highly disappointed - what has happend to society, why can't kids just be kids anymore??? hmm. something to ponder.. anyways. my life is all sorts of messed up right now. There's so much on my plate right now, and I'm really tryin to be strong, but it just feels like the pressure gets to be too much sometimes. I know it's just a test to prove that I'm strong enough to deal, but at the same time, certain people I thought I could depend on are suddenly m.i.a. and I'm not tryin to be selfish or anythin, but I'm just saying- where are you when I need you the most? I
'll be alright because I always am.. it just sucks for right now. I guess that's life for you- an emotional rollercoaster- ups and downs, twists and turns, you never really know what to expect.. hmm. I never did like rollercoasters. ok so my soul mate is about to be on TV and hopefully not get crushed against the effin nuggets. (really what kind of name is that) ok so I'm out. love me long time.

p.s. Allen Iverson and Kobe Bryant are very sexy. + =